03/01/2014

2014 Chit Chat | Positivity


Oh hello, and a very hearty 'Happy New Year' to you all! (Can you tell I've been watching too much 'Miranda' over Christmas? The word 'hearty' either reminds me of her, or of the Hearty Italian bread from Subway. Yum.) This is going to be a slightly wordier post, and I guess a bit more of an insight into the depths if my life, but nevertheless, a bit of New Years' positivity will come along with my ramblings! 

I made some pretty poopy life decisions last year, and ended up wishing I could turn back time, I wasn't enjoying life, and most of all I wasn't happy. So I'm wiping the 'life slate' clean, righting my wrong decisions and telling myself that I'm going to enjoy 2014. Most of my decisions that I regret relate to my college life, I left behind a great group of friends and a course that I was getting straight A*'s in for another course that I thought I would enjoy, but I'm nowhere near as good at. And if I'm being honest, the rest of the group aren't exactly the nicest people I've ever met. I went from being really happy to being miserable, and it started to affect my home life, my relationship, and ultimately, my health. 


So long story short, 2013 sucked. I developed horrible bouts of depression and anxiety because of what was happening, and it literally felt like the world was crashing down around me and I could do nothing to stop it. I thought nothing could make me happy, even  Nathan (the boyf) started to comment on how unhappy I was, and it suddenly occurred to me whilst watching the New Year's fireworks what sort of life I was living (I know, how very cliché of me). I decided I didn't want to be miserable anymore, I gave 2013 a good ol' kick in the balls and began to make positive changes that would make me happy for me, no one else. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is 
Don't ever let anyone else or anything else dictate what you want to do with your life. I let others make me miserable all year and ended up running away from something good, into something even worse, with worse people. I lost myself in the ruin of everything else around me, and became unhappy and unhealthy. Do what makes you happy, do it for yourself, and anyone who doesn't like it can shove it where the sun doesn't shine. :) 


So 2014 for me is a time for change, and a time for positivity. I've found something I love in blogging, so I'm dedicating my full time and attention to it, I'll hopefully be going back to my old course, I'm going to work on my self esteem and become comfortable just being me, and I'm ultimately going to be happy!

If you've read this far, thank you! This was something I really wanted to get off of my chest, and if it's helped any of you in any way well then that's just a bonus! Also, a lot of you seemed to enjoy my OOTD/FOTD post for Christmas, it's not something I usually do, but if you'd like to see more let me know, and I shall rise to the challenge -punches air ooh yeah girl power yeah-.


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